so, this isn't gonna get anymore awesome. ./shrug eh.
right. what's in my first post, then?
well, first official post?
nevermind. I'm not going for the usual introduction stuff. seems a little stupid. ./shrug
right. so.
today I have rediscovered my lack of singing talent. tonnes of stuff going on.
MYEs coming up, and here I am moping over stupid things and being a selfish bitch.
supposed to buy my guitar tomorrow.
not going to.
it's stupid.
everything I do is stupid.
first I think that it's cruel that my parents always leave me behind, and that they try to console me with lies that I believe in the beginning and I can't wait till they're gone
and then I realize that it'd be worse if I didn't even have parents
and I get so scared.
and then I pray to god please don't take my parents away.
I love them so much.
I'm such a selfish bitch.
it's not even my birthday and I'm moping around because they won't be here for it and I won't have my guitar yet even when it's rolled around.
sigh.
okay. I think that's about all I can say now.
sigh.
s'late.
should I go nap or something?
... looking forward to decorating my room.
should I finish up my bio now?
I feel like I'll fall asleep if I try. /:
should I sleep?
sigh.
Everytime I think about it I want to throw up at how repulsive my thoughts and I are.
I'll shut up now and just let my music play for a while.
should write up a wishlist to cheer myself up.
because that's how selfish bitches like me roll.
think of what we don't have and never of all the blessings we've received.
later.